Monday 26 November 2012

God Appointments.

Like I said in a previous post I spent last week down in lexington at the world renowned Sawyer Household, home of John and Brenda. Like I have also mentioned, these visits always come at the most appropriate times or come as what I like to call "God appointments". Both John and Brenda have taught me things which I could rattle on about for ages. But one thing than always resinates with me is something John once told me in the summer.
John described spending time with God by imagining God in a giant armchair, maybe with a big cup of tea or coffee beside Him, but opposite Him sits another empty armchair. This one, is for you. Everyday God sits waiting for you to plonk down into the chair opposite Him, totally as you are. Whether thats telling Him about your incredible day; He gets excited when you're excited, He is proud of you and wants to share in those joys with you. He wants you to slam down into the chair and yell at Him, asking Him why nothing makes sense, why is He doing the things He is doing; He wants to be there in your anger, to let you know He doesn't love you any less. He wants you to fall into the chair, drained and exhausted, filled with emotion and crying your eyes out; so that He can comfort His child and tell them He will never leave them nor forsake them. Gods only desire...is that you sit in that chair. That you spend time with Him. Nothing hurts Him more when you only pop into that chair for a short time and are off again. He WANTS to spend time with YOU. How crazy of a thought is that?? It blows my mind that the creator of everything beautiful and extraordinary in this world wants to just spend time with me. 

But what stops us? Time? being "busy"? spending time with friends? homework, work? Stuff thats seems pretty lame in comparison to spending one on one time with the Creator. I'm guilty of it believe me, and this is as much for me as it is for you. Jon Weece, the senior pastor of Southland Christian Church in Lexington KY, claims that one of the best things he has chosen to do is take 10 minutes every morning and night to spend in utter silence. Within this time he just totally leaves it open for God to speak, one could say he jumps into the other arm chair for ten minutes every morning and night, in this time he also ponders who God is, what God means to him. Its a great way to start and end the day, to get the focus where it should be.

So I want to challenge you; go grab a coffee, tea, whatever you are into. Go to a coffee shop, your garden, or anywhere where you can escape for a while. Take your Bible, a prayer journal or anything. get this in order or just go as you are right now. God and jump in that other chair for a while. And talk to the Person who wants nothing more in this world than to spend time with you, no matter what state you are in.

Friday 23 November 2012

Thanksgiving.

 So today was the beautiful day of Thanksgiving where we have the excuse to eat as much as physically necessary, watch football, and kill each other over crazy sales prices that evening. But this year I was challenged to write or think about what I was thankful for. I was challenged by John and Brenda Sawyer who I am thankful for in themselves because they have really poured into me this year, teaching me through their own personal example of how to seriously seek after God, the importance of His word and what a Godly marriage looks like. To be honest this semester has been a rough one, just in work load increasing and it also being the first time I was ever place the word "stressed" and my own name in the same sentence. But when I began to think about everything I was thankful for I was overwhelmed. I have been so incredibly blessed and instead of focusing upon that I have focused too much on what I should have at this point or things I need to achieve, rather than just being content in being the woman I was made to be. But here are some things I came up with:

1. I am thankful to be part of an incredible family.

         I come from a huge extended family, we are insane, crazy and just totally out there. We have every character from my Granny who makes thee most incredible sausage rolls and has the most incredible spirit which has impacted me beyond belief, my Granda the token quiet man but you know genuinely cares, my Papa the storyteller and where I get my traveling bug from and my Nana the one who after all these years driving is still mastering how to parallel park but her wicked sense of humor is where I have got a lot of mine from. We have my Aunt Nina in London whose determination and drive is so incredibly admirable, my Aunt Jacqueline's serving heart who consistently serves as a nurse to people who are often so unthankful in a huge hospital and my Aunt Paula who is one of the most welcoming people I know.
        Then we have the Uncles...and man are they a mad bunch. My Uncle Ged, the joker at every family occasion whose jokes originate from christmas crackers and Gavin and Stacey episodes. My Uncle Marty, also my Godfather, who even though he calls me "Doris"...still not sure why, I know I could turn to him for absolutely anything. My Uncle Po the technology mastermind who I have had some of my most interesting conversations with and who always brings something for me to the house when I'm home. And finally my Uncle Tot, the young one, who only recently told me he was proud of me and it means more to me than anything in the world. My five younger cousins mean the absolute world to me and I would do anything for those 5 boys.
       I would do anything for these people and although we are dysfunctional and imperfect, I love them more than anything in the world and will always stand by them. They have all molded me into the woman I am today and I know they will always continue to remain at my side.
...but now the immediate family...
         From the outside looking in we look pretty broken sometimes. But let me tell you about these incredible two men in my life. My Father, Paul Smyth, is my No. 1 fan. He will deny this but if there has ever been someone who has always believed in me, and in so many cases vastly more than I ever believed in myself, it has been him. One day this man's 15 year old daughter came in and said she wanted to go see a church in America, instead of insulting the sheer stupidity of such a statement, he bought her a plane ticket. I am a daddy's girl through and through and I can tell that this man has taught and shown me things which I will take to the grave with me. He has set an incredible example for me and has taught me that absolutely anything is possible just as long as you're willing to put the work in; Nothing good comes easy. I am thankful for a Mum who in the end just wanted to make her kids proud, and who I seem to become more like each day. A Mum who I know truly cared in the end, and I just hope I make her proud. She taught me how quick life can go but how beauty is in the small and simple things.

         My younger brother, George Smyth, is my ultimate partner in crime. George will turn 16 this December and I can honestly tell you that I look to this boy for advice sometimes. My Dad has no idea what is around the corner when we are both together, we have had the craziest adventures together and I cannot think of one time we have been together where we have not been laughing like crazy fools for the majority of the time. Sadly my Mum passed away when George was extremely young, so I mother George quite a bit, I can tell you that I am so proud of my brother and the man he is becoming. He sets a great example for younger boys who I know look up to him. 
         These two men are my absolute rocks. I know that whatever may happen in this life I will always have these two. And I know that any man that would ever try to pursue me would have to be a good one to get through these two. I am so incredibly thankful for my little family and for the huge support they give me, thy are my motivation, to make them proud. 

2. I am thankful to be part of an incredible school.
          Cincinnati Christian has been an incredible place where I have learned things and met people who have totally changed my life. This is not only my school but my home and within it lives my entire awesome and dysfunctional family which I found here. The family I have found there is incredible and the bond I have with people 4000 miles from my home amazes me everyday, I most definitely count so many of these people as family and the very thought of graduating in May 2015 and that being the last time I see them kills me.
          I am being poured into by my incredible mentor Mandy Smith who teaches me what it means to be a woman truly chasing after God. She is teaching me things which will stand by me throughout my entire career. I am being poured into by my professors who care so much more than your average university scholar. And every day I learn and am encouraged by the people around me, brothers and sisters in Christ.    

3. I am thankful for the rocks.
          There are people in my life who have always stood by me and been there right from the get go. My best friend formerly Caroline Brown and now Mrs. Rutledge led me to Christ, when everyone else didn't know what to do with me, she never gave up on me. Her persistence is what led me to Christ and I am eternally grateful for her and her caring heart which has grown even more since then. She taught me what true compassion looked like and how remain strong in faith.

          My girl Corinne Hodnett. The rock who can read me like no other person on this earth, she is one of the few who can see right through when I am trying to put up a front and is the first to call me  out. She has taught me how to preserver through anything, she is so much stronger than she gives herself credit and I could not be more excited that she moved to the States in August and now lives only an hour and a half away. Right now she is suggesting we get each other Christmas pajamas and give them to each other Christmas Eve...I could not be more excited and she knows me enough to know that.

          Ashley Tomlinson, I met this girl when I was seventeen when we realized that our Mothers died the same day and died of similar problems. Every year on that day we get together and just get away form everything. She is the big sister I never had. When she dropped me off for a leadership conference once she looked me right in the eye and said "Vikki...I'm proud of you", I sat in shock for ages, those few words just meant the world, the assurance in them was so overwhelming for me. Ashley has set a great example for me, her loving and encouraging nature is something which everyone notices from only being around her a short while. p.s this is the only picture of the both of us...it makes me love her even more.

         Bekah Balch, my kindred spirit and partner in crime, a total gem and bro who has my back. She takes a genuine concern and her servant and giving nature is to be admired. She has come through so much and has not let it hold her back. She continues to teach me so much in the everyday small things. This girl is going to do crazy things for the Lord and I am so excited to see it, she underestimates herself way too much for she is such a strong woman of Christ and has a genuine care for people.
These are only a few of my rocks. I have incredible friends which I truly believe God has put in my life and who I can completely rely on. I learn so much from these people in my life, those both in the states and back in beautiful northern ireland.
My lovely girls at Crosspoint, Dundrum
Fused teams 2011 and 2012

4. I am thankful for a love.
            I am thankful for a love from a heavenly Father that is unchanging. This love is not conditional, its unconditional and no matter what I do He wont love me any less. I will never truly understand this love and I have no chance of finding a love even close to it in this lifetime. He also has this crazy awesome plan for me that is way better than the one I have for myself, and I cannot wait to see it unfold because He has already amazed me so far.

These are a few of the things I am thankful for. I am so thankful I was challenged to do this, to think about it, because it just overwhelmed with me how blessed I truly am. But it pains me for the people who don;t have this or know this, and I feel it part of my call for people of whom I cross paths with to experience these things if only in the short time I meet them.    

 
         


Tuesday 6 November 2012

19 before 20...

   

       So on May 29th I turn 20 years old. I know this is a significant time away but hear me out. I personally cannot believe this. 20 is the age where you thought you would have everything together at. But this is far from the case. I am only starting out on this crazy journey which God has me on. When I was younger I viewed turned 20 as a conclusion, when things would take form which would be evident for the rest of my life. In my case? I view 20 as more of a starting point than as a conclusion. Back in the day my Mother was engaged by 18, married 19, and had myself at 20. I am not working to her timeline. In relation to my Mother I am more of a Peter Pan like character who refuses to grow up until further notice.

     Anyway, before I turn 20 there are certain things I want to accomplish or that I want to get in the habit of before I kiss goodbye to my teenage years and enter the ten year countdown to 30...I know. Crazy. But I am struggling to think of things which would be totally class for me to do before I turn 20. I want to do things which will challenge me, things which will enrich my last months as a teenager and will pave a good path to begin my 20's. I want these 19 things to rock my world and have a heck of a lot of laughs along the way...

But I need help in thinking of 19 things...

This is where you come in...

I want to hear from YOU

19 things before 20... 

Lets hear them... 

vikki.smyth@ccuniversity.edu

Monday 5 November 2012

The Classic Teachings on Love and Everything Lovely


At my Junior High retreat last weekend I learned so much about what young Junior Highers are facing here and it truly shocked me. I had totally forgotten was it was like to be that age but it seems that our youth are facing even more crazy stuff. As I sat with my high schoolers they began to tell me about school; about their lockers which get raided once a month for drugs, their bi-sexual friends who hold hands around school and their friends who are sleeping together, some of them even had thoughts of suicide. These kids aged from 11-13. I couldn't believe it. I love these kids so much and when they were saying all this I had to refrain from changing my major to education and starting up my own school to where I could lock them all away...or home-schooling them...that could work... But obviously with having a small group of 6th grad girls the topic of relationships came up. Some of them were "mature" and said they would wait to High School, which I immediately said still wasn't a good idea and said to wait to college...but then realized they were MY girls and I changed my mind to saying they couldn't date till they were 30. Which I still stand by. And will continue to stand by.

I came back to school, and realized that people nearly 7 years older than them still were thinking in a similar fashion about dating. They believed they were working to some sort of time frame. One thing I preached to my girls and I'll continue to, is never to settle and never to compromise, especially in relation to relationships. I see so many people do it and it breaks my heart.

Ladies,
        You deserve to walk down that aisle all in white and see the face drop of that dream man at the end. You deserve a guy who when he says "for better for worse" means it and more. You deserve a man who is a man. You deserve a guy who is totally and utterly head over heels for you in the purest form. You deserve the guy with the awesome faith who you don't think exists any more, but He does.

Men,
       You deserve that lady who walks down all in white, the girl who has saved herself just for you. You deserve a girl who wants your dreams and believes in them just as much as you. You deserve a girl who lights up every time she sees your face and makes you smile in return.


Guys and gals, if you don't promise me anything promise me you will never compromise and never settle. Don't give up your dreams, find someone who is just as excited, if not more, about the ones you have and someone who wants to be a part of them. Some people who are single get so mad at that but when you think about being single and why that is, just think that the reason you haven't met them yet is because God just isn't finished with them yet, but when they are, all the wait will be totally worth it. I promise.

Christianity Isn't Restricted.



I over-analyze my life to the max. I over think God's plan and think that in order for things to happen I need to be in specific places at specific times and do things in specific ways. This way of thinking often has us double checking every decision and rechecking it too, it makes us develop slow response times and honestly has us over thinking and doubting ourselves way too much. We often think that, as Christians, we need to follow a script which God has written and if we don't, then we are "off the path". But this idea of Christianity totally discredits the very thing which we are blessed to have...Freedom.

Now, its very true that God has a plan for our lives and we can often stray from that. But God made us with a freewill. God wanted us to freely choose to follow Him and gave us the command to love Him with all our heart, soul and mind and then to go into the world and make disciples. This is what He wants. I want to refrain from saying "this is the only thing He wants from us" because if you truly understand these commands and the implications of them then you will understand how big they are in themselves. You see to love God with all your heart , soul and mind means truly letting yourself and your desires die in order to pursue the desires He has for your life. If you aren't effected by this command, then you are simply not following it and don't understand it. I am not saying that I fully understand it, I am still learning to love with ALL my heart, ALL my soul and ALL my mind.

With ALL my heart...
       To put aside the desires of my heart and acknowledge that God will provide my every need and that He is enough...always.

With ALL my mind...
       To clear all the crap out of my brain and devote time to God so He can fill it with thoughts of Him and the ways He wants me to go.

With ALL my soul...
       To know that He saved me, He is the reason I am free and I have no other God than Him, no one will love me like Him...or even come close for that matter.

So from now, I choose to not focus on the details, God has those. I choose to live a free life, the life God intended for me, the life Jesus died so I could have. Don't think you have to follow a script, God has a crazy awesome plan for you. I promise. But the very things you look for will come when you stop looking. Instead of focusing on the details, focus on living a life of love, whole-heartedly devoted to the Lord in heart, soul and mind and go make disciples where you can, impact everyone you meet and I promise its a choice you never will regret. Let go, you aren't in control, you never were and guess what? ...you never will be. So the classic line of "Let go, Let God"comes into play. Live a life appropriate to your calling...and you are called to be free.