Saturday 21 April 2012


Rainy Days

So over here it is one of those rainy days which I always take as "thinking days". Basically, when these days come around I always acknowledge how I am not in the place I want to be, not in regards to location. I know 100% that I am supposed to be in Cincinnati. But I mean in other ways. I am not in the place where I want to be in my faith, my state of mind. But before you know it, the sun comes out tomorrow and the thoughts go to the back of my mind until the next rainy day. But I want to change this. This rainy day is one where I want to actually get an action plan together, how I can better myself and get a grasp of who I actually am. The college years are generally years where we are trying to find ourselves and I am pretty sure I could be top of that list. Sometimes I grind myself down and try to actually think about who I am, what I stand for, whats my identity in Christ? And I know I am not alone in all of this. I want to up my game and the teaching on Andy Stanley have reinforced a lot of things for me. The most important thing which I have taken from it is; Am I working on bettering myself?

The short answer? Not as much as I should be. 

So being tired with myself I am taking a year to find myself. To get a grasp of who I want to be, a year to solely focus on God, my dreams, and the woman I want to be in Christ. I'm sick of worrying who I think people want me to be, being a people pleaser is a total waste of time. And no matter how hard you try you will never please everyone. I get so worried about my future which comes at the detriment to my present. I live so much in the future that my present fails me daily. So my plan of action? I am off dating, for a year in the hope that I can discover who I am, so I can make myself into a woman totally after Gods own heart because I know that that is going to get me so much farther than anything else. You see, if I do this there is no way I could ever waste my time doing it or regret doing it. I'll be keeping you updated on my journey, as I become more open to letting God use me in whichever way he desires. But I need to solely focus, to not lose sight of why I am here and be open to Gods time. I am so excited to see how God is going to work in me and through me. 

Monday 9 April 2012

Andy Stanley; This Guy Knows What's Up

So last night I started this series by Andy Stanley on "The New Rules for Love, Sex and Dating". I can honestly tell you I will be listening to the next one tonight. Andy offers common sense knowledge that WE SHOULD KNOW. But guess what? We don't. Andy places a focus not upon looking and searching for the right person but focusing on being the right person yourself. He uses the phrase "Be the kind of person who you are looking for is looking for". He describes the story of a young girl who just got so wrapped up in dating that it became her life, she moved from guy to guy and just got so lost in it. But one night she met this great guy, he was a christian, he knew what he wanted in life, total top guy. She went home and told her Mom all about it. After listening long and hard at her daughters excitement over this guy, the Mom turned to her daughter and said "honey, you know he wouldn't be interested in a girl like you", the girl fell to the floor in tears, the Mom was right. You see we get so caught up in finding the perfect person, we think that when we find them everything will suddenly start to work out in our lives, everything will fall into place. But this is a myth which has disastrous effects later on.

You see, these are things we need to work on now. We need to be bettering ourselves so when that awesome person comes along we are ready. But don't just give your heart away.You deserve the best of love, any guy or girl can tell you they love you but seldom mean it. You see we are blessed enough tot have a checklist and it comes in the form of 1 Corinthians 13, when that significant other tells you that they love you and it pulls on your heart strings, look up that passage, does it meet those criteria? Andy suggested that we should learn all these things, what real love is, not only can we work to become these things but we can also learn these and protect our hearts. Never fall for that person unless their love for you ticks that checklist. We are constantly told to guard our hearts but seldom are we taught how to do that, its something I have wondered for a while, but if we can learn this, what love is and the definition of it from 1 Corinthians 13 then this can help us to do that. You CAN find this love. And you DESERVE this love. So never ever settle for anything less.

Honestly, Check out this series, its really changing and molding my approach and thoughts towards dating
http://www.northpoint.org/messages/the-new-rules-for-love-sex-and-dating

Sunday 8 April 2012

I Promise I'm Getting My Life in Order

So again, I apologize for being so undisciplined with this. But my life is taking so many exciting turns. Basically, today is an awesome day in the Christian calender. We celebrate Jesus raising from the dead. Death could not contain Him nor the grave restrain Him. You see today I feel I get to start over. I am sick of being complacent. You see, I see and am part of something amazing. Think of life as a game, it kinda is sometimes you have to admit. We've always been taught its not about winning or losing but how we play the game (yea like we ever listened to that, I hate to lose) but here's the deal, we have a desire to win deep inside of us and you know what? we can have it, the ultimate win. You see Jesus has already won, He defeated death, and last time I checked I don't see much of that going on right now. Jesus has won and now its just about how we play the game, if you have Jesus you know of the victory. You're probably thinking 'ok so where does that leave me, if its done, where do I have a place?". Well let me just answer that for you, we need to show other people that victory, we need to show them how they can be part of this awesome victory. People who are beat down by life day in and day out, we need to show them that defeat is not their ultimate fate. We need to show them the victory they can have in Jesus Christ, how they can be transformed completely by the undying love of Christ. I'm sick of being so conscious of what others think of me, to the detriment of my ministry, and I'm sorry to burst your bubble christian readers but this life...it isn't about you...we have been gifted with knowing an absolutely amazing story. And if you are so utterly convinced of the realities of God, of heaven, how much do you really hate someone that you don't share that with them? I'm guilty of this, and it is something I have to remind myself of everyday, I have to keep reminding myself that this life is not mine, it never was, but God has placed me as manager of it, has given me gifts and abilities that if I use wisely I can be part of something amazing. I can make a difference. Yes me, a measly teenage girl from Northern Ireland. And you know what, YOU can too. I want to keep you encouraging you. You see, this weekend I decided that I am not where I want to be in my faith, I have become too comfortable, and there is no fun in comfort. I want to be ruthless, bold, I want to be remembered as a young woman who poured out the Holy Spirit in everything she did, but that doesn't just happen over night. Join me in this journey, try it out too, because you can, but you have to want to change, you have to be open to the call. You have to allow God to work in your life, allow Him to fix the crap in your life and let him chisel away at you, and it'll hurt, but if you want to be built on the solid foundation that is Christ and be truly transformed by Him, its what needs to be done. And I'll be right beside you every step of the way.
Love in Him,
Vikki :)